there is nothing else

Why yes, i do have an 8:00am class and a test at 12:00, but since i can't think about anything but the LORD anyways.... i might as well put my thoughts out there.

The LORD was teaching me about compassion tonight. In crazy ways. I thought I was just going to FCA like every other thursday just to fellowship and experience the Lord and learn and worship, which all happened tonight but not in the way i expected. Instead of sitting in Tillman auditorium hearing a message about being the church, I was lying in a hallway physically aching for the presence of God to fall on the eight hundred people just a room away. I have never been so hungry. The Lord just told me that it was time: time for His people to have what they want from Him, time for the lost to be found, time for His love to become a tangible thing in our lives, time for revival, time for freedom, time for no more death, time for only life.

It's time.

So let's get it. After the LORD everyday, resting in His heart, receiving His love and grace, and ministering everything poured out on us. It's not about striving, it's not about recognition, it's not about duty. In fact, it's not even about us at all. Praise the LORD. It's about Him. It's about what has already been done. It's about the things of heaven that He wants to pour out on a thirsty world. It's about the cross that has already provided everything we will ever need. It's about His hunger for his lost sheep to come home. It's about His Name that deserves to be exalted more and more everyday. This is the Kingdom. There is nothing else.

and also...
Compassion is not some far off spiritual idea that we can't understand, and it's not some warm fuzzy thing that makes us feel good when we serve someone. Compassion is nothing more or less than us laying back in the arms of God, lost in His presence and resting in His intimacy. When we become so close to Him that our hearts beat for what His heart beats, we will know compassion.
And compassion like that will ruin us forever.
Ruined in the best way, but unashamedly not the same. Ruined for the pleasures of this world, ruined for the ease of staying in a church and not seeking out the lost, ruined for approval of mere men, ruined for the comfort of saying no to God's seemingly insane promptings, ruined for anything but Him.

I just want to wake up everyday and lay aside my long-engrained dreams of normalcy to pursue my heart's desire of worshipping the One who is worthy.
there is nothing else.