if grace is an ocean, we're all sinking

Mat Kearney:

This is my renaissance
This is my one response
This is the way I say I love you
This is my second chance
This is my one romance
This is the cutting line
On which I stand to show you

It happened fast in a flash just this evening
I hit the gas, horn blast, brakes screaming
Car crash, broken glass, broke my dreaming
I hit the dash so fast my ears are ringing
My sister's on the right side just slightly leaning
I grabbed her hand hard until she started breathing
My brothers in the back jaw cracked from the beating
The breath in my chest has slipped and I'm sinking
Blinking through diamond spider webs of cracked glass
I'm trying to remember all the words you said in the past
Through the ash, siren screams and red beams
I hear you sing softly to me

[chorus]
I can be the wall when you fall down
Find me on the rocks when you break down
I heard it in the song when you call out
But I got to say now it's got to change

This is my broken heart
This is my bleeding start
This is the way I've come to know you
This is my winding road
This is my way back home
This is the narrow door you know that I will walk through

I got a letter today of why she went away
She said 'it's better this way, you knew I never could stay'
Half empty closets and frames, all that's left to my name
As she left in the rain and left my heart on a chain
Three years I've built this two face tower for hours on a lease
You gave me one yellow flower that said rest in peace
IN pieces I've broken open to think too much or just enough
Alone to trust midst the rubble and the dust
Humbled, it took this much to break down and understand
Spent half my life on castles made of sand
Tossed in the breakers in the palm of your hand
Now I can finally stand


I can be the wall when you fall down
Find me on the rocks when you break down
I heard it in the song when you call out
But I got to say now it's got to change

This is my renaissance. This is my one response. This is the way i say i love you.

story of my summer.....

So...I'm going to Seattle for summer project this summer. Exciting? Yes definitely. I have known that i wanted to go on summer project since after spring break of my freshman year. I am excited to do prison ministry. I am excited to do inner-city ministry. I'm excited to meet my project mates. I am excited to be in Seattle. I'm excited about growing in the Lord and proclaiming His name in a place that has previously been unknown to me. Four weeks that will challenge me, encourage me, and excite me. Project will be amazing. Definitely can't wait.

But... project is only one part of my summer. June 14th through July 12th. That leaves me May 4th through June 13th and July 13th through August 15th. Time, time, time, time, time, time. So.... I'm currently at home and will be here for a while. Plans for being at home? Yep, staying busy. Working at Marble Slab and volunteering at a pediatric clinic. Running, working out, Spending time with Jesus, reading, writing, and discovering good music. Can't wait to be in Seattle, but excited for once about time at home. Excited about proclaiming the Lord's name when i'm scooping ice cream. Excited about doing what i might potentially be doing for a lot of my life. Excited about learning and growing and being challenged in different ways.
Excited about spending my summer with Jesus. He's pretty awesome.